Lord Give me Strength.....

What most people don’t understand is when you pray to the lord for strength or to make you stronger, He will not literally give you more physical strength, He will not add more hours to your day to complete unmanageable tasks and He will probably not just make a difficult situation disappear as if it never existed, but what He will do is put you through situations to make you stronger. See this was a ah-ha moment for me just recently. In many different situations and daily- I asked God for strength because I knew that I could not bear my burdens alone. I knew I needed guidance, understanding and strength to make it through. See I am not an expert at interpretation or speaking upon the word of God, but I am wise enough to know what God is doing in my life. At some points when I prayed my hardest, I would see situations appear right upon my life, but these weren’t necessarily blessings but more like tests,  sometimes they were more obstacles or road blocks, &  more difficult times. So many of days, I thought to myself-why is it the harder I pray, the harder situations become, the less understanding I have? But through the guidance of Him and consistency of seeking Him, I realized that He was not giving me physical strength, He would not simply just remove my roadblocks, He would not just completely change my mind, He would not just make things easier or perfect because we always need to be working in and through Christ and if we’re perfect then what would His purpose be? But what He would do was test me and put me through situations to see if I could endure or withstand what His ultimate goal was for my life.  Examples such as making me work harder on the job. Why for over a month now, have I felt an increase of stress at work with mandating of work six days per week? What is He getting ready to do in my life with a sign of building my endurance to work through tight deadlines, is it my inspiration of having a family business in my future that He’s preparing me for?? And how about my health, I wonder why am I feeling an increase in pain and sickness over the last few months? What’s the answer to why he’s building my endurance with being able to handle pain and sickness, what is getting ready to happen with me or someone close to me where I would need to be stronger in this area? As far as results in which I’m sure a majority of us want to make sure we get the right outcomes of what people around us do or deserve along with the right outcomes for our own actions. But sometimes I don’t see the results I want, I don’t see people reaping what the sow, I don’t see fairness or understanding. Why is there a need for the results to seem unfair or that the harder I push for the good outcome, sometimes it’s not always to my understanding?, is He preparing me to be more understanding and patient, is He preparing me for a major blessing (outcome) that I’ve been searching for? All these questions I ponder, but what I do know is that the Lord is my leader and while He is testing me, building my endurance, making me stronger and giving me patience. He has an ultimate goal for my life, and whatever it may be I welcome it with open arms. Lord continue to give me Strength, so that I could move in the ways that you would have me to go!
Sarah