Listen

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within

It's only beginning to find release


Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard

They will not be pushed aside and turned

Into your own all 'cause you won't

Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads

I'm not at home in my own home

And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind

You should have known


Oh, now I'm done believing you

You don't know what I'm feeling

I'm more than what you made of me

I followed the voice you gave to me

But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened, there is someone here inside

Someone I thought had died so long ago

Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heard

They will not be pushed aside on words
Into your own all 'cause you won't

Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads

I'm not at home in my own home

And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind

You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you

You don't know what I'm feeling

I'm more than what you made of me

I followed the voice you gave to me

But now I've gotta find my own


I don't know where I belong

But I'll be moving on

If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart

A melody I start but I will complete


Oh, now I'm done believing you

You don't know what I'm feeling

I'm more than what you made of me

I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I've gotta find my own, my own

Listen- Beyonce

Fantasia - Lose to Win

I had to lose to win.



-Sarah

2 Years Later.....

The last two years of my life as I look back have been very trying. I have truly been thru the test of time. In no way do I ever want to rewind or relive the difficulties and recall the pain and hurt. I've had to make some of the most difficult decisions of my life and the lives of my children. I admit, I'm not quite ready to divulge much of what I've been thru, but what I can say is that it has put a major damper of my writing. What I once found joy or relaxation in over my lifetime has become nothing more than another chore on my list of things to do. I was afraid of being able to express myself. I became almost a different person. My character has changed greatly. You'd be amazed at what some situations will do to your lifestyle. The effect it can take on you is almost unbelieveable. The things the world puts you thru is surreal. the real world hurts..... There is no reasonable escape....

Many people end up making a total lifestyle change, and I don't mean for the better. The pain you have to endure can leave you in state of disbelief that you want nothing more but to flee. Fleeing can leave you with many options but most importantly you know that you need to hurry towards a place of security. What you've always know as security can be what your actually fleeing from so then what?