The last two years of my life as I look back have been very trying. I have truly been thru the test of time. In no way do I ever want to rewind or relive the difficulties and recall the pain and hurt. I've had to make some of the most difficult decisions of my life and the lives of my children. I admit, I'm not quite ready to divulge much of what I've been thru, but what I can say is that it has put a major damper of my writing. What I once found joy or relaxation in over my lifetime has become nothing more than another chore on my list of things to do. I was afraid of being able to express myself. I became almost a different person. My character has changed greatly. You'd be amazed at what some situations will do to your lifestyle. The effect it can take on you is almost unbelieveable. The things the world puts you thru is surreal. the real world hurts..... There is no reasonable escape....
Many people end up making a total lifestyle change, and I don't mean for the better. The pain you have to endure can leave you in state of disbelief that you want nothing more but to flee. Fleeing can leave you with many options but most importantly you know that you need to hurry towards a place of security. What you've always know as security can be what your actually fleeing from so then what?
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