To Care or Not to Care that is the question

To be honest, I wanted to name this post I dont give a *uck! But as we now that is not a very nice or respectful way of expressing myself, but at least now everyone knows what I feel deep down inside.

Over time, especially the last few months I've had to learn without much choice to stop allowing people or things to bring me down. I am a very emotional being as most people who really know me should know, but I've had to learn how to develope tough skin. Life becomes so much better when you learn not to care or allow negativity to sour your mood. Another thing I learned is that no matter how good or bad you do in life, there will always be that group of people who see the bad and the bad only, so the better you do, sometimes the worst they think of you. Lovely isn't it? lol.

When most people are bothered by things that happen or the way people treat or judge them, it only seems natural to respond or find a way to prove them wrong, right? Well to be honest, personally I found that doing absolutely nothing works so much better for me. Its almost like the things that happen or what people say or do are so insignificant is not even worth taking up space in my mind or spirit. I know me, I know what I'm working towards in life. I make mistakes just like every other human being. Sometimes I'm right, sometimes I'm wrong. I'm Imperfectly Perfect! I make decisions in my life to head in the direction I choose to go in. This life was given to me so I plan on living it to the fullest. So from now on if I seem emotionless about situations, you don't have to wonder why, its because I stop to think first - To care or not to care?

~Sarah

A Brand New Me

Loving this track and how it represents where I am in my life right now! Listen.....

I didn't know my own Strength

When people try to get the best of you, when they find ways to tear you down and to break you. Just listen to and remember the lyrics of this strong. When people try to hurt you to the core, remember your strength.

Its time to Celebrate!!

In one week, I'll be celebrating my 28th Birthday! So come on and celebrate with me!!!

For all my current and previous book club members.........Chapters of Conversation - The End...........

http://chaptersofconversation.blogspot.com/2012/05/chapters-of-conversation-end.html

Writers Block

Hello, hello, hello (echo)........ the pages of my blogs have been empty for so long, some may find it a bit disturbing. Its fine to feel that way, I've traveled that road plenty. I hope no ones given up on visiting although there's no doubt most have. I want to take a moment to apologize to my bloggy family and friends. I'M SORRY for leaving you lonely, stranded, and just plain angry at my inability to produce a post of substance or even non-substance for that matter.


There were no poems, no music, and no words that I felt inclined to post about over this period of time. I realized I could have done better, thrown a song or two, a poem or two, or just a simple update on whats going on in my world, but no can do! I came down with the good ole condition most refer to as writers block. My stubborn inability to produce even a single word to post on any of my multiple blogs was well....a problem that I'm ready to move past.

So as I visit my blogs again after a long deserted break, expect some posts and updates and feel free to pop over more often. I'm looking forward to your comments or questions, so shoot any my way!
Happy Monday to all and I'll be blogging with you soon!

 Many times people ask me why do you write? I have many reasons why.. some being that I write when happy when angry, when excited, when scared, when bored, I write as a form of my expression. I am a very reserved person and when younger I would write with no intentions of showing or telling anyone what I’ve written. Now I want the world to see and experience my expression. Its calming, it’s fun, its inspirational, it’s a way to open doors that you no longer want to keep closed.

One thing I don’t like the world to see is when I write when I’m angry. This is a door that cannot be opened to some because they would never understand or might interpret it the wrong way. When people read your writing, there way of interpretation can make or break the intention you had on your expression. I’ve learned over the last year or so how to REPLY rather than REACT to the a person’s way of interpreting my writing. I don’t want to shy people from what I write whether they enjoy reading it or not. I want them to feel like they’ve gained or learned something from it. Just as I would want to feel when I’m reading another person’s form of expression. I don't want to feel offended or hurt or as if I interpreted the wrong way. At times many people are unlike me and they write with intentions of causing pain and anger in others. I know this is going on because I’m a writer. I can interpret, break down and determine what the meaning behind what certain expressions or words mean and how they were put out there for others to see. The most important part of how I handle this is to not re-act, but simply to reply if that is even necessary. I’ve seen so much on facebook this past weekend to make a person just plain sick and tired of peoples stupidity and ignorance to the realities of the world. I waited and pondered how I should react to what I’ve seen….I had so many things in mind, but then I realized, hold up I need to pray about this- On this issue I need guidance on how to control my anger, how to be a comforter those affected and offended and how to reply and if it was needed for this situation. Oh God, I asked why does the devil have to run so ramped in people these days? Why can’t they get there mind and souls right and stop allowing the devil to control their every move, every decision and thought? And then I had a ah-ha moment. Everyone is not saved…just that simple right? Everyone is not saved. Let me say it again for those that read too much into things. Everyone is not saved. Therefore if everyone is not saved they cannot and will not begin to understand or see why there life is so screwed up and why they are so stupid and ignorant and why they hang around stupidity and ignorance. Do I hate or despise these kind of people? NO, but I will not allow myself to stoop to that level with them, I’ll let them know about their selves whether they like it or not. Everyone deserves to be told the truth and truth is YOU NEED TO GROW UP and stop the drama! Truth hurts! You are much too old and should be a model of maturity and love to continue on the same path that you have been on. If you haven’t already- it’s time to grow up and grow out of the mess you’ve been in for so long, you deserve a better life, you children deserve better, and your friends and family deserve better of you. Now before I close this out, let me just reassure you that my intentions were not to single you out or treat you bad, because God knows I still love you and want better for you. And if it took this for you to see that you need some Jesus in your life for real then it should be a wakeup call for you and not a breakup a relationship call for us.

Prayer can be a very personal thing, there is a time and place for everything and this prayer I share with you today:

Prayer for Peace

Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;

where there is hatred, let me sow love;

where there is injury, pardon;

where there is doubt, faith;

where there is despair, hope;

where there is darkness, light;

and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,

grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;



to be loved, as to love;

for it is in giving that we receive,

it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,

and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen.

--St. Francis of Assisi (1181-1226)