Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Monday, September 12, 2011
Writers Block
Hello, hello, hello (echo)........ the pages of my blogs have been empty for so long, some may find it a bit disturbing. Its fine to feel that way, I've traveled that road plenty. I hope no ones given up on visiting although there's no doubt most have. I want to take a moment to apologize to my bloggy family and friends. I'M SORRY for leaving you lonely, stranded, and just plain angry at my inability to produce a post of substance or even non-substance for that matter.
There were no poems, no music, and no words that I felt inclined to post about over this period of time. I realized I could have done better, thrown a song or two, a poem or two, or just a simple update on whats going on in my world, but no can do! I came down with the good ole condition most refer to as writers block. My stubborn inability to produce even a single word to post on any of my multiple blogs was well....a problem that I'm ready to move past.
So as I visit my blogs again after a long deserted break, expect some posts and updates and feel free to pop over more often. I'm looking forward to your comments or questions, so shoot any my way!
Happy Monday to all and I'll be blogging with you soon!
There were no poems, no music, and no words that I felt inclined to post about over this period of time. I realized I could have done better, thrown a song or two, a poem or two, or just a simple update on whats going on in my world, but no can do! I came down with the good ole condition most refer to as writers block. My stubborn inability to produce even a single word to post on any of my multiple blogs was well....a problem that I'm ready to move past.
So as I visit my blogs again after a long deserted break, expect some posts and updates and feel free to pop over more often. I'm looking forward to your comments or questions, so shoot any my way!
Happy Monday to all and I'll be blogging with you soon!
Monday, June 20, 2011
Many times people ask me why do you write? I have many reasons why.. some being that I write when happy when angry, when excited, when scared, when bored, I write as a form of my expression. I am a very reserved person and when younger I would write with no intentions of showing or telling anyone what I’ve written. Now I want the world to see and experience my expression. Its calming, it’s fun, its inspirational, it’s a way to open doors that you no longer want to keep closed.
One thing I don’t like the world to see is when I write when I’m angry. This is a door that cannot be opened to some because they would never understand or might interpret it the wrong way. When people read your writing, there way of interpretation can make or break the intention you had on your expression. I’ve learned over the last year or so how to REPLY rather than REACT to the a person’s way of interpreting my writing. I don’t want to shy people from what I write whether they enjoy reading it or not. I want them to feel like they’ve gained or learned something from it. Just as I would want to feel when I’m reading another person’s form of expression. I don't want to feel offended or hurt or as if I interpreted the wrong way. At times many people are unlike me and they write with intentions of causing pain and anger in others. I know this is going on because I’m a writer. I can interpret, break down and determine what the meaning behind what certain expressions or words mean and how they were put out there for others to see. The most important part of how I handle this is to not re-act, but simply to reply if that is even necessary. I’ve seen so much on facebook this past weekend to make a person just plain sick and tired of peoples stupidity and ignorance to the realities of the world. I waited and pondered how I should react to what I’ve seen….I had so many things in mind, but then I realized, hold up I need to pray about this- On this issue I need guidance on how to control my anger, how to be a comforter those affected and offended and how to reply and if it was needed for this situation. Oh God, I asked why does the devil have to run so ramped in people these days? Why can’t they get there mind and souls right and stop allowing the devil to control their every move, every decision and thought? And then I had a ah-ha moment. Everyone is not saved…just that simple right? Everyone is not saved. Let me say it again for those that read too much into things. Everyone is not saved. Therefore if everyone is not saved they cannot and will not begin to understand or see why there life is so screwed up and why they are so stupid and ignorant and why they hang around stupidity and ignorance. Do I hate or despise these kind of people? NO, but I will not allow myself to stoop to that level with them, I’ll let them know about their selves whether they like it or not. Everyone deserves to be told the truth and truth is YOU NEED TO GROW UP and stop the drama! Truth hurts! You are much too old and should be a model of maturity and love to continue on the same path that you have been on. If you haven’t already- it’s time to grow up and grow out of the mess you’ve been in for so long, you deserve a better life, you children deserve better, and your friends and family deserve better of you. Now before I close this out, let me just reassure you that my intentions were not to single you out or treat you bad, because God knows I still love you and want better for you. And if it took this for you to see that you need some Jesus in your life for real then it should be a wakeup call for you and not a breakup a relationship call for us.
Prayer can be a very personal thing, there is a time and place for everything and this prayer I share with you today:
Prayer for PeaceLord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen.
--St. Francis of Assisi (1181-1226)
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Saturday, May 28, 2011
7 Day Challenge Finale!!!
Hello,
As I prepared to wrap up the 7 day challenge, it became harder and harder to write. In a way I became almost defiant and stubborn in my thinking. I said things like, I don't want to write, I don't have to, I'm grown and can do what I want, when I want. In life sometimes you have those moments where you feel like "this" is mines and I don't have to answer to anyone but me. Some wonder why did you challenge yourself? What was it suppose to mean? My intentions and goal of the challenge was to take a period of time in my life where I had to embark on a difficult situation and enjoy and bask in my joy of writing. I wanted to basically make a difficult situation easier by doing something I like. Well it started out nice and easy and as the days continued, it became harder and harder. Before you knew it, day 7 slipped right away from me without completion. It wasn't just my inability to want to write, but of course life got in the way. Situations occur very often in a family of 6. So only a strong desire would've really sat me down to write that day. Of course I had everyday after that and that's just how I looked at it. I could write it anytime now because I'm late anyways, right? You'll have to excuse the fact that this post comes long in length and I hope you will find the ability and time to want to finish reading.
I was confronted with a reader of my blog (thanks family) when I didn't post day 7. Unbelievable right? Now I had to force and answer to why I had just given up or not completed my journey. People actually enjoyed what I was doing and were looking forward to finding a conclusion to what this all meant. So then my thinking became OMG! I have to write this, it almost felt forcible now, which was the complete opposite of my purpose. I fought with emotions, situations, and my inability to find the "right" words to wrap the challenge up for days. At times when I found the right focus, it wouldn't stick in my mind in enough time to write it down. Timing was never perfect. But today as I sit and write, I refuse to get up without finishing up this challenge. It's late, but somewhat right on time. I remain proud of myself (regardless of the fact that its late) for finishing it up. As I speak upon what I learned and gained from this challenge, let me first say, it was indeed a challenge and I need so much more work on completing personal tasks and working on me. I am a wife and mother, but I also need to continue to really and truly focus on me. Most times I am just going through the motions and not enjoying the beauty of life and the beauty of being a woman. I have also learned that although my journey seems hard now, it is preparations for fruits of life that many long to have. I have gained so much spiritually from this journey. I am a Christian and my goal is to make it to Paradise. As (man)human in body, there are many times where I will do human things and think human thoughts. I will make mistakes and learn from them. I will sin at times knowingly and unknowingly, but I'm learning how to be a better Christian each and every day.
As I wrap up this post today, I hope that through my journey I have encouraged you to embark on the next step or next dream of your journey. Anything you do, that it not part of your normal routine can be considered the next step. Whether it be starting a new path, hobby, job; developing an relationship or repairing an relationship and so on so forth. Focus on your life right now, determine and act upon your Mission, realize and find your Vision, last but not least- LIVE IT!
As I prepared to wrap up the 7 day challenge, it became harder and harder to write. In a way I became almost defiant and stubborn in my thinking. I said things like, I don't want to write, I don't have to, I'm grown and can do what I want, when I want. In life sometimes you have those moments where you feel like "this" is mines and I don't have to answer to anyone but me. Some wonder why did you challenge yourself? What was it suppose to mean? My intentions and goal of the challenge was to take a period of time in my life where I had to embark on a difficult situation and enjoy and bask in my joy of writing. I wanted to basically make a difficult situation easier by doing something I like. Well it started out nice and easy and as the days continued, it became harder and harder. Before you knew it, day 7 slipped right away from me without completion. It wasn't just my inability to want to write, but of course life got in the way. Situations occur very often in a family of 6. So only a strong desire would've really sat me down to write that day. Of course I had everyday after that and that's just how I looked at it. I could write it anytime now because I'm late anyways, right? You'll have to excuse the fact that this post comes long in length and I hope you will find the ability and time to want to finish reading.
I was confronted with a reader of my blog (thanks family) when I didn't post day 7. Unbelievable right? Now I had to force and answer to why I had just given up or not completed my journey. People actually enjoyed what I was doing and were looking forward to finding a conclusion to what this all meant. So then my thinking became OMG! I have to write this, it almost felt forcible now, which was the complete opposite of my purpose. I fought with emotions, situations, and my inability to find the "right" words to wrap the challenge up for days. At times when I found the right focus, it wouldn't stick in my mind in enough time to write it down. Timing was never perfect. But today as I sit and write, I refuse to get up without finishing up this challenge. It's late, but somewhat right on time. I remain proud of myself (regardless of the fact that its late) for finishing it up. As I speak upon what I learned and gained from this challenge, let me first say, it was indeed a challenge and I need so much more work on completing personal tasks and working on me. I am a wife and mother, but I also need to continue to really and truly focus on me. Most times I am just going through the motions and not enjoying the beauty of life and the beauty of being a woman. I have also learned that although my journey seems hard now, it is preparations for fruits of life that many long to have. I have gained so much spiritually from this journey. I am a Christian and my goal is to make it to Paradise. As (man)human in body, there are many times where I will do human things and think human thoughts. I will make mistakes and learn from them. I will sin at times knowingly and unknowingly, but I'm learning how to be a better Christian each and every day.
As I wrap up this post today, I hope that through my journey I have encouraged you to embark on the next step or next dream of your journey. Anything you do, that it not part of your normal routine can be considered the next step. Whether it be starting a new path, hobby, job; developing an relationship or repairing an relationship and so on so forth. Focus on your life right now, determine and act upon your Mission, realize and find your Vision, last but not least- LIVE IT!
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Live the Life You've Imagined
"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined."
Henry David Thoreau
What do you imagine life as? Are you constantly dreaming or thinking about what your life could've or should've been? Do you not have a clear sight of what you want your future to look like? Do your dreams of life sometime seem unreal or not approving of your friends or family? Today ! encourage you to take the step, stop doubting yourself and go in the directions of what you want your life to be like. Start meeting your goals one at a time, step by step, accomplishment by accomplishment and overcoming failures. Think about it, where have you gotten so far just sitting around waiting for life to magically change for you, waiting for your dreams to come true and your not evening taking the steps to get there? Give your dream of excellence a try, you don't have much to lose but a bunch of seft doubt. As always keep God entangled in each and everystep of the way. Ask him to lead you and carry you through.
Until next time!
Henry David Thoreau
What do you imagine life as? Are you constantly dreaming or thinking about what your life could've or should've been? Do you not have a clear sight of what you want your future to look like? Do your dreams of life sometime seem unreal or not approving of your friends or family? Today ! encourage you to take the step, stop doubting yourself and go in the directions of what you want your life to be like. Start meeting your goals one at a time, step by step, accomplishment by accomplishment and overcoming failures. Think about it, where have you gotten so far just sitting around waiting for life to magically change for you, waiting for your dreams to come true and your not evening taking the steps to get there? Give your dream of excellence a try, you don't have much to lose but a bunch of seft doubt. As always keep God entangled in each and everystep of the way. Ask him to lead you and carry you through.
Until next time!
Friday, May 20, 2011
Random Ramblings
Its day 5 of 7 and I wonder why sometimes I challenged myself and I'm sure your wondering too and what it's all about, well hang in there as I prepare to close out this challenge and enjoy!
Thank God its Friday! (TGIF)
All my prayers for those who've recently lost love ones. A special praying for the strength of the Miller family and Burleson family.
Smart Phone + Water = bad news and a dumb, illiterate phone
Dont believe the Hype! It's not all that!
Sisters are the best!
A special shoutout to the most artistic girl I know! check her out at http://www.ellabear.blogspot.com/ !
Huggs and Kisses (Muah Muah!)
Thank God its Friday! (TGIF)
All my prayers for those who've recently lost love ones. A special praying for the strength of the Miller family and Burleson family.
Smart Phone + Water = bad news and a dumb, illiterate phone
Dont believe the Hype! It's not all that!
Sisters are the best!
A special shoutout to the most artistic girl I know! check her out at http://www.ellabear.blogspot.com/ !
Huggs and Kisses (Muah Muah!)
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