2 Years Later.....

The last two years of my life as I look back have been very trying. I have truly been thru the test of time. In no way do I ever want to rewind or relive the difficulties and recall the pain and hurt. I've had to make some of the most difficult decisions of my life and the lives of my children. I admit, I'm not quite ready to divulge much of what I've been thru, but what I can say is that it has put a major damper of my writing. What I once found joy or relaxation in over my lifetime has become nothing more than another chore on my list of things to do. I was afraid of being able to express myself. I became almost a different person. My character has changed greatly. You'd be amazed at what some situations will do to your lifestyle. The effect it can take on you is almost unbelieveable. The things the world puts you thru is surreal. the real world hurts..... There is no reasonable escape....

Many people end up making a total lifestyle change, and I don't mean for the better. The pain you have to endure can leave you in state of disbelief that you want nothing more but to flee. Fleeing can leave you with many options but most importantly you know that you need to hurry towards a place of security. What you've always know as security can be what your actually fleeing from so then what?

To Care or Not to Care that is the question

To be honest, I wanted to name this post I dont give a *uck! But as we now that is not a very nice or respectful way of expressing myself, but at least now everyone knows what I feel deep down inside.

Over time, especially the last few months I've had to learn without much choice to stop allowing people or things to bring me down. I am a very emotional being as most people who really know me should know, but I've had to learn how to develope tough skin. Life becomes so much better when you learn not to care or allow negativity to sour your mood. Another thing I learned is that no matter how good or bad you do in life, there will always be that group of people who see the bad and the bad only, so the better you do, sometimes the worst they think of you. Lovely isn't it? lol.

When most people are bothered by things that happen or the way people treat or judge them, it only seems natural to respond or find a way to prove them wrong, right? Well to be honest, personally I found that doing absolutely nothing works so much better for me. Its almost like the things that happen or what people say or do are so insignificant is not even worth taking up space in my mind or spirit. I know me, I know what I'm working towards in life. I make mistakes just like every other human being. Sometimes I'm right, sometimes I'm wrong. I'm Imperfectly Perfect! I make decisions in my life to head in the direction I choose to go in. This life was given to me so I plan on living it to the fullest. So from now on if I seem emotionless about situations, you don't have to wonder why, its because I stop to think first - To care or not to care?

~Sarah

A Brand New Me

Loving this track and how it represents where I am in my life right now! Listen.....

I didn't know my own Strength

When people try to get the best of you, when they find ways to tear you down and to break you. Just listen to and remember the lyrics of this strong. When people try to hurt you to the core, remember your strength.

Its time to Celebrate!!

In one week, I'll be celebrating my 28th Birthday! So come on and celebrate with me!!!

For all my current and previous book club members.........Chapters of Conversation - The End...........

http://chaptersofconversation.blogspot.com/2012/05/chapters-of-conversation-end.html

Writers Block

Hello, hello, hello (echo)........ the pages of my blogs have been empty for so long, some may find it a bit disturbing. Its fine to feel that way, I've traveled that road plenty. I hope no ones given up on visiting although there's no doubt most have. I want to take a moment to apologize to my bloggy family and friends. I'M SORRY for leaving you lonely, stranded, and just plain angry at my inability to produce a post of substance or even non-substance for that matter.


There were no poems, no music, and no words that I felt inclined to post about over this period of time. I realized I could have done better, thrown a song or two, a poem or two, or just a simple update on whats going on in my world, but no can do! I came down with the good ole condition most refer to as writers block. My stubborn inability to produce even a single word to post on any of my multiple blogs was well....a problem that I'm ready to move past.

So as I visit my blogs again after a long deserted break, expect some posts and updates and feel free to pop over more often. I'm looking forward to your comments or questions, so shoot any my way!
Happy Monday to all and I'll be blogging with you soon!