"Lord, give us enough hurts to keep us humane, enough failures to keep our hands clenched tightly in Yours, and enough of success to make them sure we walk with You throughout all of our life."

This is a snippet what I pray today. This is found in many prayers from weddings, to christenings’, to blessings of our homes and churches, for prayer over our family and friends and many more. I have embarked on a journey these last couple months and my journey is not done, I have many roads to cross, may obstacles to overcome and may roads blocks to back me up. But with that there are many goals I’ll accomplish, joyful moments, everlasting memories, hearts I’ll touch, tears of joy, and inspiration to receive and provide. I pray that God gives me the strength and understanding to make this journey complete and to do as he would want me to do. I realize that he has not brought me, neither you this far to leave us. Each and every situation and circumstance is for the glory of him. He will never give us more than we can bear. As said in my prayer, he needs to prepare us for his blessing and if that means we have to encounter hurts, failures, and successes to keep us in his plan to walk with Him throughout all of our life then so be it. I know that through all things, he is with me each and every step of the way.

Random.......

I've heard this song a few times on the radio and thought WOW! this is one of the sweetest forgive me/love songs I've heard in a while. It just goes to show that its possible to reconnect or love again within the same relationship. Listen.....

Patience IS a virtue

Definition of PATIENT


1: bearing pains or trials calmly or without complaint
2: manifesting forbearance under provocation or strain
3: not hasty or impetuous
4: steadfast despite opposition, difficulty, or adversity
5a : able or willing to bear —used with of
5b : susceptible, admitting
 
I was told this past weekend how much patience I had (and I'm referring to with my children). Thank you God for one wonderful friend who was very observant of my doings over a span of hours. Before I go on, lets just say that with so much to do and so much going on in my life, people have seen the real me( which is exactly what you've seen in the past). I don't have time to to be extra anything (what you've seen is what you get). So what I'm getting at is how I act in front you people is how I act not in front of people.
 
Consistently recently I have asked for patience; patience on my job, patience with my friends and enemies, patience with family, patience with time, patience with obstacles and most importantly patience to deal with my children(the most impatient beings on earth(in my opinion)). So in my consist request, I thought I struggled more than average with this area of my life, but come to find out I am one of the best with having patience. So a friend of mine said to me WOW!, you have so much patience, with the many children your dealing with and the many situations, you can actually still speak in a tone that's comforting, your graceful, not appearing angry, its surreal what I've seen this evening. You have a lot of patience, its like you close out the noise from the screaming baby, from the mess of the evening and focus on whats important and necessary and its real. So I said to her, are you serious? you think I'm patient? She said yes, If I were you or any average person, there's no way it would be possible to deal with the situations of the evening and still carry on like a normal human being, its virtually impossible!
 
As I look further into the situation, I'm able to see that I am a calm, cool, and collective person and realize that I'm able to operate without constant complaint, I'm still manifesting regardless of obstacles and strain. I am not impulsive and violent. I can bear the situations that come my way despite adversity. Here a I am, one of the many patient moms and wives out there in this world who hadn't even realized that I finally got what I was asking for!
 
To close, some how some way before I had a chance to notice, my prayers were answered. God kind of just slide this blessing into my life for the sake of my children and My Dear I'm sure. So If you find an area of you life where you are lacking, don't give up on improving. Continue to request the change or improvement your searching for and reevaluate after time, you may already be experiencing the blessings you've asked for. Remember to take notice of how you are currently functioning and take credit for a job well done.

I haven't been able to write, but can I share a video with you?

Closer..........

I Just Found My Niche

I just did it, I finally came to the realization that I found my niche! I love to plan, absolutely, positively, can't get enough of it planning! After spending about 6 months (maybe more) on the planning of a book club/social club and finally kicking it off this past July, i realized something was missing. I was yearning for the next step, not the next step of the book club such as what were reading, but more like how can I plan for the next step of our vision for the book club- who, what, where, when, why and how can we make it to the next big thing? I'm creative, I like to set boundaries, I like to put things into perspective, I like to set real goals and work my way through them, I like to be prepared, I want things to be perfect. WOW! How can this help me? What can this do for my life? How can this alter or prepare me for my future goals in life? I'm really not sure how to answers those questions, but I do know that I am at the first point and I will continue to work my way up until I accomplish what God has set forth for me to do in life. I'm excited of where I am, its not that I have a perfect life, a perfect career, a perfect family, or I'm a perfect person, but just that I'm excited that I have something to look forward to in my future endeavors. I know there will be obstacles, barriers, and just plain roadblocks that the devil is excited about putting in place, but I am growing, learning, and advancing in so many areas of my life and I can't wait to see how things turn out!

Welcome Back!

Wow, it’s been a long time. You might ask, where have you been, why haven’t you kept us updated? We’ll for those of you who know me well, well you know exactly where I’ve been and what I’m up to. I’ve been chillin, enjoying life, taking it easy, setting a foundation for my book/social club, partying a bit too much at times, and preparing for some upcoming great changes in my family life. I am still being responsible on my quest to a healthier me for the most part. I will not be seeing my doctor again until the end of this year, so I can now move forward knowing I’m back to speed on my health. Unfortunately I haven’t seen a change in the scale, but I’m still proud of where I am. I’ve even now taken advantage of our corporate park gym at my job. I can’t say that I’ve been overwhelmed with everything going on, but just enjoying every moment of it. I’ve spent a great deal of my summer with lots of friends and geographically close family, but I do miss my family back home-very much. For now I’ll take advantage of technology and keep doing what works. But I can’t wait for the day we can be close again. I miss my dear sister so very much- I imagine the fun times we had together and look forward to bringing those back to reality. I know that we are apart for a reason- and it’s in Gods greater plans to bring us back together for a bigger and better, closer relationship. I’ve been able to witness the re-union of two sister after a few years of no face to face contact and oh how I crave for that feeling too- so much I can taste it at times. It brings a tear to my eyes sometimes to realize how guilty I feel at times to share a bond with a friend that I want with my own sister. But friends- I still love you too, but its different and special and unique- you’ll understand. Blessing are uncontrollable, my dreams and goals have been coming to pass right in front of my eyes. Their real and some of you may have witnessed them. Well I’m back and I miss my consistent writing- you may have too. Thank God for the break and for placing me back where I belong.